I decided that Im going to stop pursuing massage therapy at school.  Im going to take some music courses instead. I figure I may not be able to make a great career out of it, but Ill be able to graduate and take courses that i want to take. And classes I want to take means I can do well.

Jerrica and I are on break. After weeks of little fights and her getting grounded I asked about it and she was okay with it. Ive been trying to give her her space and not be up her ass about everything. Since then, I've realized that I love her and want to make things work between us.  However, I don't think Im going to be given that chance.

Shes listed as single now(which we kinda are), shes not looking(which could or couldnt be in my favor), shes deleted all her pictures of us, and moved me to the back of her top friends(behind my sister who she doesnt like right now and next to her asshole ex). Yeah yeah its myspace whatever. I know her and how she works. She constantly changes that thing around.

And now its sparking up my paranoia again. Maybe shes seeing someone else and thats why she was cool about the break. I dunno. I feel like shit now.

Today was the Shout It Loud show. Against All Authority, Streetlight Manifesto, Less Than Jake and Reel Big Fish. Phil had some personal issues and couldn't get tickets. I went alone and scalpped a ticket at 75$. Yikes! The show was only like 20$+ charges. Ran into Sandra, its nice seeing her now that we're on good terms.

Against All Authority was pretty good. I didn't really pay attention to them. I just ran around in a circle pit.

Streetlight Manifesto played Everything Went Numb, Failing Flailing, Point/Counterpoint which segwayed into a cover of Catch22's Keasby Nights and back into Point, Heres To Life and a few songs a I didn't know

Less Than Jake did a pretty awesome show. They had the stage set up like The Price is Right. Constestants picked from the audiance would have to answer questions without going over the price. The winner gets to play a game to decide what album the next set of songs were from. The played All My Best Friends Are Metalheads, Overrated, The Ghosts of You and Me, Plastic Cup Politics, Short Fuse Burning, History of a Boring Town, Johnny Quest Thinks We're Sellouts, Sugar In Your Gastank, and a bunch of other songs from Borders and Boundries. Which is like the only CD I skip from them on my iPod. It was almost Hello Rockview. So close.

Reel Big Fish was as charismatic as ever. Lots of jokes and lots of songs. They were making some of the guards working the barricade crack up laughing. They played an amazing set. Trendy, Everything Sucks, Take On Me, S.R.(and multiple variations of it), Where Have You Been, She Has a Girlfriend Now, I Want Your Girlfriend to be my Girlfriend, The Set Up, Kiss Me Deadly, Beer, Sell Out, a verse of Enter Sandman(never get tired of hearing it) and some new songs. We they went away before the encore the crowd started singing Olay! When they came back out they were playing it.("we just made that one up")

Thats about all i can think of. Maybe more tomorrow. Talking to Marina, the girl I met last week at Brotherly Shove. Awesome.

http://www.cnn.com/2006/LAW/10/25/jersey.samesex.ap/index.html

Its a good day.

5 October 2006. ♥



Oh shit. Kicked your ass.

Me: If we were going out, would you cheat on me?
Sandra: ummmm I got a bad history actually... but I def wouldnt want to, you're too awesome.


Not gonna lie, this scares me. A lot.

Almost lost my job yesterday. My manager calls me up at like 9:30 and tells me that she doesnt like the idea of me covering my piercings. And that I have to take them out. I tell her that Im not going to take them out. She retorts with, so your giving up your job over a piercing? I told that I would get back to her later cause she woke me up.

I call back later and ask about using a clear retainer(which pretty much makes it look like nothings there), she told me that she would call up the area manager and see what options I had.

She calls back about 45 minutes later and tells me that Wawa policy is that Im allowed to cover them up with a bandaid.(which is what I was doing in the first place)

Im going to call the Wawa Call Center because this is outrageous. I almost lost my job on a biased opinion while I was following the store policy.

Im writing this here because this is a semi long story that Im going to have to tell over and over again. So I plan on just linking people to here. The following is very graphic and all completly true.

Friday afternoon I got my snake bites. When my mom comes home later on in the afternoon, she completly disapproved of them and demanded that I take them out. When I refused, she told me to get out of the house and grabbed some trash bags to put my things in.

During the fight between me and her, my dad got pissed off and told my mom that shes flipping out over nothing. And told her to get out of the house. He then stormed out of the house.

Like hell I wanted to stick around my place, so I went to the mall. But by about 9, I was getting really anxious and wanted to go somplace else. I stopped by the store and talked to Jim. I hung around there till he got off work. We decieded that I would spend the night at his house. I just went home to grab my laptop and go.

When I opened the door I knew that something was wrong. The was some broken stuff in the foyer. I ran upstairs to get my things, when i heard my dad screaming and yelling. I think I heard a big crash too. He started crying my name.
I went down to see what happened. My mom had blood splattered on her shirt and a gash on her nose. My dad was soaking wet with a bit of blood on his shirt too. He keep crying my name, I told him I was there and he responded that he couldnt see me. He then started growling and stood up and kicked my mom. I pulled him off of her, and he walked off and layed down again.

I took my mom upstairs asked her what happened to her and if she was all right. Then my dad made his way up the stairs. When he saw my mom, he pulled back for a punch. But I got in the way, and I dont think any contact was made. He then fell to the ground. And started throwing what was around him. A baby gate and a picture frame if I remember correctly.

At this point my mom told me to call the police. I have no clue what happened after that. My mom joined me outside shortly there after. She had told me that he passed out. We waited for the cops to come.

When they finally got there, I showed them to his room so they could arrest him. He woke up as his arm was being bent half way behind his back. He had no clue what he had done or what happened. The cop instantly pushed him into an arm lock and told him to cooperate. They told me to leave, and I didnt bother to think twice. It was the most painful thing I had ever been through.

After the police got all the things they wanted, I went over Jim's(I still feel horrible that he had to whitness all off this). About 30 minutes later my mom called saying that my dad was ready to be picked up.

So I drove do the police station, told him that I was going to take him to a hotel for the night. I also told him what he had done. He was too drunk to remember any of it. All he talked about the entire ride was how hes done with my mom and hes going to sell the house, take my sister, and move to North Carolina.

At the time I figured it was because he was still drunk, but come morning he felt the same way. So my parents are going to split up, and its all my fault. I dont want to stay with either of them. I want to get an apartment, but they're too fucking expensive for me to afford just working at wawa. I think Im gonna get a second job. Im going to need one, to get my own place.

So I quit smoking the other day. Thought you guys should know.

8 On the Break on thursday?

GRADUATION

Im craving a Coke Blak, even though it makes me want to hurl my innards.

All in all, Disney put me $332 in the hole. =\ I didnt even buy that much either.

Blizzard Beach: Summit Plummet- So Heavy. Did pretty much every ride there.
Epcot: Needed more time, only had enough time to eat and do the Norway ride, which was rather weak, and the Test Track, which was fucking amazing.
Magic Kingdom: Long lines, and Space Mountain used up my fast pass. Splash Mountain was great.  Jungle Cruise was really not cool.
Clearwater: cesspool of boredom. Ended up sleeping on the beach and getting burned on my calves. Got seasick on the cruise, and the horrible food didnt help much.
Universal Islands of Adventure: The Hulk 3 times, Dueling Dragons 5 times, Spiderman and Jurassic Park twice. Great fucking time there =D
MGM: Tower of Terror was kinda weak. Rockin' Roller Coaster was fun, though a little short. Indianna Jones was awesome. Star Wars wasnt all that great. And the muppets were funny.
3 hour flight delay on the way home. NOT COOL.

Pictures when I get money to develop my camera.

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Down Syndrome

Ive made up my mind, Im not going to prom. Unless something really comes up.
I dont care what you think of me, but at least let other people judge me for themselves. Ive changed a lot recently. Not that you would know. Jackass.
Getting my license soon.
Still working on getting over it. Today was kinda hard, but things will be better soon.

( personality thing )

I got my Guilty Gear box set. As seen here:
http://www.play-asia.com/paOS-13-71-8l-77-p-49-en-15-Guilty%2BGear-70-yrb.html

Part two of 6 hour road course today. Test in 7 days.

The last week has been an emotional Roller Coaster. The best thing I've ever had in my life is now blowing up in my face. I feel its only going to get worse from here. I know its not her fault. Shes just under a lot of pressure. I dont really think its fair, but theres not much I can do or Ill get jailed.
I had some strangly vivd dreams last night. Two of them to be presice. I didnt like the outcome of either. I hope they are not signs of things yet to come.
I havent eaten anything since tuesday. Im ungodly hungry, but find myself sick at the sight or smell of food. I really dont know how im going to make it through work this weekend.
I wish there was something I could do to get everything fixed. Contrary to what you might think, I am a good person. Just this is bringing out the worst in me. Hell, its even bringing out the worst in you.
I doubt writting this here is going to effect anything. Hell, it might get me in worse trouble later on. But Im willing to take that chance.
I really dont hate you. And Im truly sorry for how much of a jackass Ive been over the past several weeks.
I hope that you can through the stress you've been going though as of late. Once again, Im sorry that I was the cause of some/most of that stress.

I hope your happy with the choices you made.

http://meilk.com/?meilk=4

Enjoy.

I bought more stuff from J!NX today.





They're on their way.....